Thoughts Of a Loss

I'm starting to hear the same words she said to me before.
the memories , they haunt me, they linger outside my door...
I hide in shadows for solace and for comfort….
As I fell asleep and my heart slowly crumbles….
The walls of foundation, its starting to creek…
I tried to reach out but my voice gets weak….
I'm blinded by your pride inside a hole so deep….
I pulled myself up but my hands just slip..
The spaces between us is starting to grow….
I'm afraid that soon we'll have a hard time to control….
Tho someone will pick you up right before you fall…
My face will drown in mud, to get up I need to crawl…
I meant to stay with you forever…
But some things complicate our lives when we're together…..
These Fate and destiny thing must be true….
because no matter what I do, I can't be with you…..


 Credits to: Danilo Fulgasino Jr. 

50 Shades of Fuckedupness..wait what?

I had a long thought about why this is a necktie. Hm?

 I just recently finished reading 50 Shades Of Grey Series and well, erotic parts aside, the story was just a so-so. All along, I was really thinking that the book was inspired from Twilight. Christian Grey, is so much like Edward Cullen though their circumstances are a bit different. And oh! about the sex thing? that wasn't even BDSM. I mean it would have been better if the writer defined Christian's BDSM character more profoundly other than just merely pointing it out as a matter of fact. There wasn't anything that readers could use as a standard definition of Christian being a BDSM. First few pages of the first book and I immediately asked if Christian really was indeed into BDSM because as what I have noticed, he's entirely not. All he wishes is having sex where he's on top. And what's more, he wanted to do it to Ana basically because Ana responded actively. Talk about her being 'ready and wet'. I honestly got tired of them having sex every single chance they could get and trust me, it's not even realistic, not in a bit. Anastasia Steele, for the love of anything that's pretty, haven't you noticed that you also like control? that you also like being on top? I seriously thought that you would turn out to be into BDSM as well at the end. Much like Bella Swan became a vampire right at the end of the last book. Seriously, you're contradicting yourself, you. The only thing that's different between these two books is that the other one grows fangs as teeth. Aside from that, the plot is superbly the same. There are a lot of questions that should be raised in almost all of the parts of the book and I won't dig deep into it or we wouldn't finish today. That's about it folks, and I hope I made my point. Ja!

Farewell, Long Hair!

When I was younger, I had always dream of having my hair as long as rapunzel's but that, is one of my many dreams that didn't come true. Well, partly, because I had the tendency to get bored with my present do and 'impulsively' cut it short. Honestly speaking, whenever I see someone with short hair and looks good with it, I wanted to have my hair cut short too,..and again, it's overruled by the wish of having a long hair. If I will connect all the hair that I cut since I had the liking to, I can probably step on it.

I have had my hair really short when I was in 5th grade and man, I don't wanna remember that awful moment. That I-thought-it-was-good-but-it-turned-out-bad feeling..argh.too much bad memories *sniff sniff*
Again, I had cut my hair short but what I dreaded to be the return of the comeback of my bad memories back then didn't actually happened. My hair,was neatly trimmed and cut (yea, I haven't mentioned the lack of proper lighting when my sis cut my hair short) (and yes, the shears too...the dull ones =.=)

I actually clearly instructed her to just cut and inch or so from my long beloved hair...but it turned out that she was aiming for another cut and so what I expected didn't really what turned out to be. Of course, I was doubtful at first, having to expect something and presented with different is very disappointing...for most part. I looked at my new hair in the mirror, and stared at the face owning the hair. Aside from the fact that I'm really pretty (whether you like it or not), I noticed that the hair did not show it's usual defiance whenever I cut it short (fly-away and curve-ishy) so, I guess maybe this time my hair is okay. And so, it is...my new short hair ;)

Hello short hair! ;)

Goodbye Long Hair *sniff*

Reunion is MANY-ier the second time around.

Ugh, you get the idea, I have made this entry to let you know that WE (no pretenses there) are planning to hold another reunion to see your very lovely faces. You must know by now that the previous reunion we've had (which only consists of me, melai, tinee, Bernadette, and some dungheads)  was just a plain nightmare I might say, not to mention what happened to me and melai when we went back home.(we ate our hearts out!rawr)All we had worth going there was pictures, and by that I meant lots of pictures.

This was taken the night we arrived at Mobbie's house, painful memories shouldn't be cherish but nevertheless, here it is guys. Enjoy as best as you can.

A friend of mine commented on this photo and said "Ikaw ra kuno nagpabilin sa kahayag? HAHA" (so you're the only one who remains in the light? HAHA) nope, it's just the edits guys, no offense meant, directly though.

It's good to be back from when you were in your grade school years., looking back at those times, I wish I could stay young forever.

from left to right, that's Johnrel, we never really were close so let's just close the subject, Christine, yea, that too.ME, and my very good friend Melissa. I had fun, though not that big a fun that was.

Yea, right, well the funny thing was I kind of thought that we make a second reunion, a better, more-prepared one I'll say. Let's make this grandeur and have everyone join. Not like the first one, it was a total mess that was. So, for all the information that would be posted on our Facebook Group. Should you have any comments, suggestions, violent reactions, if you mind to kill the administrators of the group page or should you want a date with me...just post it in the facebook group page. As for the things that we need to talk about in order for this plan to move along the way of success Here's how:

• Please check on our Facebook Group Page for updates regarding this event. We will be posting several options for you to choose from so that we could decide with finality and ease.
• Please do post or send me a PM about where in the world could we reach to call you.
• Be Active! The last thing we need here is someone sleeping in the back while the rest of the world is busy looking for something to do.

A Series Of Serial Killings

I have been very interested about this particular story that my cousin told me about a guy named Jack living in london in the 1980's who had been rumored to be a serial killer. He caught my whole attention and I started collecting information about this guy and the story behind the murders (feels like Holmes, eh? hihi)

At first, I thought this was just one of those stories made up by mothers to keep their children in bed at night. But. how wrong I was. Or I thought so.

Information I research contained some list of those people being murdered and the story minutes before the incident happened. Let's not just go over the details like apparently, Mr. Jack here is a woman hater, or so I say..since he likes killing women, whores in particular and enjoys spilling their guts out literally. And as I was hitting home page, a link caught my eye and decided to check on it, that's when I found a bunch of letters known to police as the Ripper Letters..

.-this is just the first of a Ripper Letter sent September 27, 1888 at the Central Post Agency. It is stated there that the ink used to write the letter itself is the blood of the woman being murdered by Jack. 

Transcription Piece:

Dear Boss,
I keep on hearing the police have caught me but they wont fix me just yet. I have laughed when they look so clever and talk about being on the right track. That joke about Leather Apron gave me real fits. I am down on whores and I shant quit ripping them till I do get buckled. Grand work the last job was. I gave the lady no time to squeal. How can they catch me now. I love my work and want to start again. You will soon hear of me with my funny little games. I saved some of the proper red stuff in a ginger beer bottle over the last job to write with but it went thick like glue and I cant use it. Red ink is fit enough I hope ha. ha. The next job I do I shall clip the ladys ears off and send to the police officers just for jolly wouldn't you. Keep this letter back till I do a bit more work, then give it out straight. My knife's so nice and sharp I want to get to work right away if I get a chance. Good Luck.

Yours truly
Jack the Ripper

Dont mind me giving the trade name

 

PS Wasnt good enough to post this before I got all the red ink off my hands curse it No luck yet. They say I'm a doctor now. ha ha

*end of transcript

I had been interested to read all about this guy until I hit a page which discussed something or someone who is alarmingly interesting yet disturbing as well...

There are certain speculations which is spreading across the internet that Dr. Jose Rizal, the national hero of our very own country, is actually Jack, now known as Jack the Ripper.

~well, I meant well to those whose lives work at night..

END OF PART ONE

Born this way..=)

God made no mistakes

I'm on the right track baby 

I was born this was

Don't hide yourself in regret

Just love yourself and your set

I'm on the right track baby

I was born this way =)

~ I am currently listening to my very own kababayan, Maria Aragon on her cover of Born this way by Lady Gaga. Nice one from her, well, when can I have my own cover too?.dream on hazel T.T

And the story of us is a lot like tragedy now...

could it be that due to excessively long period of separation or some miscommunication could bring about the end of a fated relationship?.

Well, if that's the case, then that's something to be avoided..

what to do? what to do? what to do?